罢工！

今天一早醒来就告诉自己不可那么容易让步了。

于是我决定罢工！

来个无声抗议！

当然所谓的罢工，依然还是有做工，只是有些不想做的就不管它了。让他自己去弄吧。是时候让他知道我的重要性！

人往往都是那样，在你面前你永远都不会珍惜，当你失去了，你才恍然大悟。

罢工的日子也不好过。闷得很。看着一大堆工作累计在那儿，心里一点也不好受。

今天时间过得非常慢。。。。。。。

上网聊天也不懂得聊些什么。。。。


无论如何，希望罢工成功吧！

什么都不想说

当一个人已经不想说那么多，也不想解释那么多的时候，是不是已经到了绝望的时候？

对着你已经不想再争吵，不想再多说，不想解释，不想讨论，只想让它过去吧。讲再多也不会找到解决的答案。讲了又是为了什么呢？

我已经迷失了方向。。。。。

Its Too Much and Too Sad to Say Anything

today is the last day of the funeral. cant sleep.

just received sms from sister ask me to say goodbye to her. sister said:" too sad too many to say..ask her forgot all pain all suffer and rest. she has done her best. she is a good mom good wife. god will lead her to another peaceful world."

yes. its really much n too sad to say anything or to tell her.

heart is too pain too pain. very pain to hv her leaving us.

ahh... its too pain really very pain. what to say? what to do? beside crying and pray for her......

everybody is too painful for this.

mom n dad reached pg yesterday finally. i can see dad is very sad he just remain silent without saying it out. mom cried when she arrived her house.

im sorry that i dint take part in the last ceremony yesterday night. its really heavy to do so....before drove to there, my heart started to feel very heavy and sad. just want to remain silent, dont feel like talking..dunno wat to talk also.... i believe everyone is the same.

everybody remain silent there. really dunno wat to say... its too much n too sad to say a word at this moment.....

feel so reluctant to send you away....... cant see you, cant touch you, cant talk with you, cant joke around with you, cant hear your laughter anymore....

i wonder how pain is that going to be.

somemore, worried abt your 2 daughters. how they are going to live without you? anyhow they hv been very good gals very tough so far...you dont worry.

sigh its really too much and to sad to say anything........

what i can do is just dropping my tears.

gg, as sister said, you already done your very best for yourself and the family... its time for you to rest. forget all about the unhappy, the suffer and pain. God is too heart pain to see you suffer and pain....they appreciate what you have done to your life.......thats why they decided to bring you to another peaceful place. Dont ever worry your children and family.... they will know how to take care themselves as they had you as their good mother. You are a good mom, good wife, good sister, good daughter-in-law, and a good aunt! Take a good rest now....you will always in our heart....

bye, gg, take a good rest.

mayhui

15th february 2008

7.35am

Gonna Miss You Gok Gok

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Gonna Miss You Gok Gok
1 am smtg, received a call. my handphone screen showing a name that i dont wan to see at that time...not at this late night.serious.... cant tell how much i wish this call dint ring at that time.
hearing cousin crying there said her mom is in dangerous already......
ahhhhh....
my heart is like suddenly stopped fuctioning. without a second, rushing out with hand trembling.
my tears starting to coming out yet hv to control telling myself it will be fine.
drive fast to hopsital, running to the ward. seeing smtg i dun wish to see.
she is really in dangerous...hard to breath.......cousin crying there....my tears flowing out with her cry... seeing gok gok lying there with all the oyxgen equipment.
and so damn frust with the hospital services. nurse dunno doing what there. walk slowly, do slowly. call doc also hv to wait 20 minutes. when the doc came walk slowly somemore. damn.... is she doc? some1 life is in dangerous and might be go anytime and this doc still walk like catwalk.
really suck.
.............................
and we sent her home..... help her to change cloth everything....... and half way i change.....i knew .......i knew smtg is wrong already.
..........
gok gok.....gonna miss you ..miss you very much.....
may you rest in peace and happily ever after.
11th February 2008 Monday 5.23am

Back with sad news

finally i back to May's Garden....

such a long time dint blog already.

just finished reading through old posts and cleared up some posts.

the latest i wrote was about my aunt.... now reading back heart really feel so pain.... was thinking weather to delete it....

entering a brand new year 2008, which chinese said is a prosperous year as there is a number 8.

however, during the chinese new year.....it is the worst chinese new year i had.

Suppose it should be a joyful, fill with hope new year.....

but so unfortunately, very unfortunately....my aunt passed away. The one i wrote about her in last post.

It was a sad news..sad news to everyone who close to her.

it has been almost a month she passed away...but my heart still feel very pain when think of her. tears are still coming out.....


emm....really dont know what to say about life ya...

Cancer

Very sad now. my aunt who suffered from cancer is admitted again last 2 days. now still in hospital. Her back there accumulate a lot of water and the water flow out non-stop. every 4 hours doc hv to inject to get all the water come out. till just now its too much water already.... and 4 to 5 docs gathered at her bed there operate to open a hole and put a pipe inside her body through the back to somewhere near her stomach. Its so painful! First time i knew my aunt cried after so long she suffered for cancer.
I believe it must be tremendous pain!

My tis aunt is a very strong and degil women. no matter how she suffered or pain, she still will smile to you said she is ok she is fine..dun worry.


Really pity her.... pity for her life..pity for her marriage...pity for her to get this damn silly illness.

Sometimes when i saw her i really feel the world is not fair. she is a very kind ppl, pretty women. i still remember when i was small, we used to stay together. she liked to comb my hair, and my sister one, play with us, joke with us.

However, after she married. Her life is changing.... changing a lot. she had to work days and nights, take care her children. Never rest a single day throughout the year. And her husband is like just helping to spend money, use the money to treat his frens drinking... etc

really heart pain seeing her alone working hard. and now she is the one suffering from cancer....

I really cant understand cant understand why this is happened....!!!!

sigh....really dont know wat to say... very sad. wat can we do ....?besides let the tears flowing out.


Hope god will bless you.

Finally ....i went Shopping!

Hooray!

Finally i went shopping and bought 2 new clothes and a new shoe!!

hmm...think back...hvnt go shopping for a very ver long time already...at last yesterday break the record!

Actually tonight hv to attend a fren's housewarming and i found really really dont hv any cloth that can wear for a party.

So finally i went to butterworth Sunway Carnival to hunt new cloth. Honestly speaking, i found myself really out of the trend.... many many new styles of clothes and wearing i can see.

I went to a new shop called Message. Its not a new brand in Malaysia but the first one in Penang finally. I found Penangites are getting luckier coz many many brand of outfit etc are getting open in Penang. Not like last time, whenever wanna shopping hv to go KL to shop. But right now with the 2 newly opened shopping mall- Queensbay Mall and Sunway Carnival, many brands which you only can find in KL last time are opening in Penang as well. It is good as it will help to increase the living standard and enhance the fashion touch of Penangites... hehe....

Okay back to this Message shop. The clothes are pretty nice, colourful and trendy. All the while, i thought this brand is a foreign brand till yesterday night when the sales gal told me that they hv 2 designers incl the boss herself. Really wat a surprise!

Cant imagine Malaysian designing are so great as other advance country. The clothes here are quite unique with its own styles. Its good as you no need to worry too much that will "zhong sam" with ppl. Still can lah but low possibilities..hehe

Additionally they hv a lot of choices... really ngam my style i guess. Just stepped in the shop take a glance and i manage to spot many clothes already. After trying its all pretty nice actually...but budget limit :( so only can choose 2....sobbing.....

But better none la....so still very happy. hehe

Then bought a new pair of shoe at Vincci and its time for movie then. Yipeee... cheers Shopping!