Its Too Much and Too Sad to Say Anything

today is the last day of the funeral. cant sleep.

just received sms from sister ask me to say goodbye to her. sister said:" too sad too many to say..ask her forgot all pain all suffer and rest. she has done her best. she is a good mom good wife. god will lead her to another peaceful world."

yes. its really much n too sad to say anything or to tell her.

heart is too pain too pain. very pain to hv her leaving us.

ahh... its too pain really very pain. what to say? what to do? beside crying and pray for her......

everybody is too painful for this.

mom n dad reached pg yesterday finally. i can see dad is very sad he just remain silent without saying it out. mom cried when she arrived her house.

im sorry that i dint take part in the last ceremony yesterday night. its really heavy to do so....before drove to there, my heart started to feel very heavy and sad. just want to remain silent, dont feel like talking..dunno wat to talk also.... i believe everyone is the same.

everybody remain silent there. really dunno wat to say... its too much n too sad to say a word at this moment.....

feel so reluctant to send you away....... cant see you, cant touch you, cant talk with you, cant joke around with you, cant hear your laughter anymore....

i wonder how pain is that going to be.

somemore, worried abt your 2 daughters. how they are going to live without you? anyhow they hv been very good gals very tough so far...you dont worry.

sigh its really too much and to sad to say anything........

what i can do is just dropping my tears.

gg, as sister said, you already done your very best for yourself and the family... its time for you to rest. forget all about the unhappy, the suffer and pain. God is too heart pain to see you suffer and pain....they appreciate what you have done to your life.......thats why they decided to bring you to another peaceful place. Dont ever worry your children and family.... they will know how to take care themselves as they had you as their good mother. You are a good mom, good wife, good sister, good daughter-in-law, and a good aunt! Take a good rest now....you will always in our heart....

bye, gg, take a good rest.

mayhui

15th february 2008

7.35am